the sunflower in a withered garden

You look back at the past and reflect how you lived you life. You reflect on the friends you’ve made through the years. You start mixing with all types of people and start noticing who are genuine and who aren’t. Who was there when shit happened, who was there when you bought a new expensive bag. Who was the one who complimented on your ugly hair, who was the one who helped you cover your ugly hair? A good friend isn’t someone who has done a lot for you, but a good friend is someone who will just make your day without making you spend hundreds of dollars and not someone who will make you listen to a topic you refuse to hear.

Friends are like shoes, there are the ones which you wear to beautify, and there are those which you wear for comfort, those that you wear despite the wear and tear.

 I choose comfort; because I hate wearing heels they just leave nasty blisters at the end of the day.

he smokes like an amethyst

Holidays?

My term break went pretty well, it was a pretty packed 2 weeks break.

I didn’t study at all, I didn’t touch my PP at all sooooooooooo..

 I will share with you what I did for the holidays..

Saturday 30^st May: Tia hung out at my place, played Wii

Sunday 31^th May: Out with Shikin and Wesley, and saved the soul of my life support - Keli

Monday 1^st June: Drama Camp

Tuesday 2^nd June: Drama Camp

Wednesday 3^rd June: Drama Camp

Thursday 4^th June: Sleepfest!

Friday 5^th June: Homestay + Driving

Saturday 6^th June: Tia in the morning and Bangkok at night

Sunday 7^th June: Bangkok

Monday 8^th June: Bangkok

Tuesday 9^th June: Bangkok and Singapore

Wednesday 10^th June: Sleepfest + Driving

Thursday 11^th June: Homestay?

Friday 12^th June: Happy Time at Vivo

Saturday 13^th June: Jane Day

Sunday 14^th June (Last Day of my term break) : Study + Wesley Day

K, Drama Camp was pretty fine I guess, left with a bad carpet burn on both of my knee caps, not cool man not cool. Bad enough my leg is fat and ugly; I just needed that carpet burn to “beautify” it. Blonde much. I guess I always run away from anything uncomfortable.

Bangkok Bangkok Bangkok Bangkok Bangkok ! freedom Trip with Keli and Belinda!

Wei Wei Wei Sawadeekapppppp..

It was, awesome, cool, fantastic, tiring, worthwhile, ate the spiciest chicken I’ve ever tasted in my life and it came from KFC. Ate the same thing for dinner for 3 consecutive nights, learnt the art of bargaining. Err all in all an effing fun time was spent ah.

It’s alright I’m Ok I Think God can explain.

Oh yah! I deem Wesley Meow as my bestfriend!

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Meet Granmama

Here we go

Waking up in Bangkok

Our oh so high Hotel

CamSluts

Because we are in Bangkok!

The only day in my life, my hair was nice ah, miracle.

TukTuk!

Everyone grab hold

Singapore NO dunkin donuts

I wasnt wearing any lipstick, my lips were bruning from the chicken i ate

I swear, this wasn;t made up, we were really figuring out our way with a map

Tired!

The spiciest chicken in the world

aftermath

 Check the other girl out

This was a linkway to another mall, A+ for creativity

Unforgettable taxi ride!

Potato?

Really tired

Last day..

Checking out

fierce

bored

Nails Nails Nails

Our last hour

Bye bangkok, Hello reality

the old me is dead and gone

Tell me I’m crazy.

Tell me I’m out of my mind.

Tell me I’m trying to dibble into concrete ground with a toothpick.

Tell me there is no more hope.

Tell me I should move on.

Tell me what to do.

I don’t know where I’m heading.

I don’t know what I’m doing.

I don’t know what I’m feeling.

Is there hope?

Is there chance?

Am I doing the right thing?

I’m in an endless tunnel and I don’t see the light.

Maybe I just need to sleep. 

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

Insensitive, maybe that is something I’m born with. I am sensitive, I really am, I just don’t show it like how you people show it. I am actually a very boring person, I have a monotonous nasal voice, I really don’t care much about the world and I hate a lot. Maybe that is why half the world hates me. I’m just not that girl who lives to serve, to fit in. I don’t like means I don’t like, I like means I like. Easy peasy.

I am a tape recorder; I repeat what I say every time you cry to me when you’re heartbroken. I will tell you to tell your mom if you’ve done something bad, I won’t tell you its ok when you’re in a shit situation, I will go through it with you. I’m a good friend at least that is what my mom says. She is the only person in this tangled world who understands me truely.  Not many ever do understand what I am going through most of the time; I know I’ve told you guys, you’re the only one who understands.

Sometimes that one person who you’ve least expected to understand or talk to is the one person who understands, who agrees with you when even your friend doesn’t. At the same time it is somehow easier to give a “I’m glad you understand” reply as you’re sick of trying to explain because you know they will never understand.

Sometimes I feel tired of trying to face things or people I don’t like every day of my life. Tired of feeling alone when there are people around you.

Change is good.